Disillusionment

Well, this happened to me when I realized that my survey results and my INTERVIEW! needed to be in with my 2nd draft.AHHHHHHHHH!!!! There's nothing more for me to hide behind. Part of me doesn't even want to go to NYC anymore. If I hadn't already paid my money I'd back out right now. and for what? College English. I have too much work to do. i hate this. Any of you want to go for me? all you have to do is learn all my parts for the music we play?